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~Moonlight~ 4/18/2023 6:31 PM

WAIT NO

no pain no gain

6:31 PM

nah tbh, i've dug through all the cringe with my tupper and its not bad

6:31 PM

she literally doesnt care

i asked her and for the first time she refused to answer...

oh

oh god no

its not the end of the world, you'll both figure it out

i literally felt truly struck emotionally by a videogame character, thats really embarassing...

6:33 PM

i dont think she is angry, i think she is being silly with mw

its not tbh

when i literally cry for a fictional character's death it is

6:33 PM

i only cry when dogs die in stories

people are struck with everything, video games are just a new medium

i usually laugh iy off

its not any more cringe than crying at a movie or a good story or book (edited)

that time it hit like a freaking falling airplane in flames

6:35 PM

and i felt madly in need for someone like the character tl the point my regular brain stories felt irrelevant

6:35 PM

and since i already had planned to make a tulpa in the next few weeks i decided to do it with that character

6:35 PM

oh god im like red hot blushing

6:35 PM

i dont know if its me mallory or both of us at the same time

6:36 PM

my skin is usually ice cold >.<

lol

6:38 PM

dw

okay, i calmed down a bit and asked her, she says she doesnt mind.

6:43 PM

im still like super blushy

lol, i told you

its the first time i ever blush like this

my entire face is red

6:43 PM

anime style

flooshed

7:21 PM

talking about everything with tups is therapeutic

Leiko

So you can communicate with a tulpa through thought instead of verbal communication This implies that you share all thoughts. Is this true? I know they unfortunately have access to my past memories which i feel extremely negatively about because i have some secrets i keep from everyone. i don’t want a potential tulpa to view me in a negative or inaccurate way based on aspects of myself that i have locked away in my head. Anyway the main point of my question is that i’ve had an extremely prevalent fear my entire life of having my mind ‘read.’ Will i have no privacy within my thoughts whatsoever anymore if I form a tulpa?

@Deleted User - jump you are worrying about it but in my opinion a tulpa knowing your secrets and accepting you despite them can be very healing for you

thank you Leiko

I'm sooo sorry for suddenly leaving

8:32 PM

My power went out

ack i feel bad now

11:45 PM

even after she said it was fine i feel like she still feels something, im not sire what exactly

11:50 PM

she says she is fine, but in a way that reminds me of when i tell other people im fine when im confused or feeling bad

Why doubt it?

because it doesnt feel like she is fine

12:31 AM

its weird to explain

12:32 AM

today we were embarassed and laughed it off, but now i have that feeling i get when i lie to someone i care about

After some convincing

1:20 AM

Its all better now

1:20 AM

She felt bad for prying on the memories I asked her not to, which was only those specific ones.

1:21 AM

And still a bit embarrassed I think

1:21 AM

But I had to do another reminder on how much she truly means to me, which I don't mind doing every minute of the day if she needed it.

1:21 AM

She still feels bad but now we are talking again

Sjdhdhdhf, we are starting to havr much more complex conversation

3:04 AM

She is even talking to my friend although not completely directly

3:04 AM

She is also correcting me on some things I assume that aren't completely right

3:05 AM

She also called me out when I lied to my friend

3:06 AM

Lied about something trivial, like what haopened with us

3:06 AM

So she told me I was being a bit hypocritical

Tulpas are great arn't they!

I'm so happy ^-^

3:06 AM

Yesssss definitely

3:06 AM

My life has only improved ever since Mallory was a part of it

3:07 AM

Although they teamed up on me

3:07 AM

Both arguing that I should take more care of myself

3:11 AM

Quite silly

It's fascinating how this can also create a domino effect, revealing one of my friends to be an actual true best friend forever material. He has helped me a lot through this too, with his point of view outside of the tulpa community.

He did tell me he wants to learn more

Almost Word for word, "thats not at all weird in my opinion, unless you are a serial killer nothing will change"

Congrats on the progress, that's great!

as ive tried to improve my ability to visualize in my mind i havnt seen much of any improvement despite the fact ive been trying to be more aware of my visualization ability for a long time now. the thing is, i can see images fine in my head, im by no means aphantasmic, but like. i cant hold visuals. they appear and then they disappear no matter how hard i try to keep them still. does anyone know how to keep visualizations sustained? the current result is that my tulpa, despite having preferred form, cannot keep said form in my focus and neither can i. she exists almost soley as a voice, and i feel like this has always impaired my ability to stay focused on them and as a result, impaired development, as i find visuals much easier to focus on normally than voices outside my mind

You could try to visualize from her perspective and have her look at herself

The bunbirdergy!

as ive tried to improve my ability to visualize in my mind i havnt seen much of any improvement despite the fact ive been trying to be more aware of my visualization ability for a long time now. the thing is, i can see images fine in my head, im by no means aphantasmic, but like. i cant hold visuals. they appear and then they disappear no matter how hard i try to keep them still. does anyone know how to keep visualizations sustained? the current result is that my tulpa, despite having preferred form, cannot keep said form in my focus and neither can i. she exists almost soley as a voice, and i feel like this has always impaired my ability to stay focused on them and as a result, impaired development, as i find visuals much easier to focus on normally than voices outside my mind

this is my situation exactly

6:45 PM

though, it wasnt too impairing to my visualization

6:46 PM

and tbh, im unsure how to keep them sustained aswell

6:46 PM

the time i can do so is slowly increasing

i have a similar situation, not completely related to visualizing my tulpa though, whqt i try to see in my minds eye mostly flashes in an out of existance, but when im able to hold it its like a 9/10 only a bit darkened in terms of quality, but thats very rare, i can see much better late at night when im sleepy for some reason, but yeah, altough some full days i cam see everything as a 6/10 without much interruption, its weird.

The bunbirdergy!

as ive tried to improve my ability to visualize in my mind i havnt seen much of any improvement despite the fact ive been trying to be more aware of my visualization ability for a long time now. the thing is, i can see images fine in my head, im by no means aphantasmic, but like. i cant hold visuals. they appear and then they disappear no matter how hard i try to keep them still. does anyone know how to keep visualizations sustained? the current result is that my tulpa, despite having preferred form, cannot keep said form in my focus and neither can i. she exists almost soley as a voice, and i feel like this has always impaired my ability to stay focused on them and as a result, impaired development, as i find visuals much easier to focus on normally than voices outside my mind

That's likely not related to your ability to visualize and more related to your ability to focus. I used to be like that before i started taking adhd meds that worked.

Kei Wendt

That's likely not related to your ability to visualize and more related to your ability to focus. I used to be like that before i started taking adhd meds that worked.

i take dhd meds

7:04 PM

adhd*

7:04 PM

a lot

7:04 PM

or did take a ot

i can mantain focus on things i care about for hours, even tho i get distracted and forget about things not important

7:05 PM

like one time i read for 8 hours straight, almost lost my grip lf reality

7:06 PM

i remember i couldnt feel my body too much lol

it is a bit of a focus thing

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however

7:06 PM

(well, i interpret it as such, i cannot "focus" on the image)

holup lemme try visualizing its been a while since i tried it eyes closed (1 week)

7:12 PM

it doesnt flash in an out of existance often, just bits, but i cant see colour, should have practiced more.

this has generally been very elightening, thank you all. im going to see if i cant increase my focus myself manually. ive been asked by a few psychiatrists before what my thoughts were on the possibility of adhd so if my self training doesnt satisfy the level of focus id like to have i may wave that white flag n admit maybe they had a point haha

The bunbirdergy!

this has generally been very elightening, thank you all. im going to see if i cant increase my focus myself manually. ive been asked by a few psychiatrists before what my thoughts were on the possibility of adhd so if my self training doesnt satisfy the level of focus id like to have i may wave that white flag n admit maybe they had a point haha

One thing that helps me is guided visualizations with other peoplr

i struggle with visualization too

9:58 PM

i can do visualization but only if i try hard enough

You can always listen to binaural beats

tbh not sure why that would help ..though I should probably be sleeping

Listening to music you like may help, it definitely helps me even though it's metal or funky electronic it makes me concentrate more on my mind, since I directly relate music to my mind for some reason.

There is also staring at a candle

I can get that The noise can take away distractions and such

aren't y'all mixing up with meditation?

Meditation is good for focus and (immediately afterward meditating) visualization clarity

So, we've gone ahead and drafted the exercise we wanted to write about below. It's a little choppy, because we've been a little tired these past few days, so our writing isn't the best. (I'll go back and fix it afterwards.) https://docs.google.com/document/d/131vFi0_ju2EHpTq7rnwpRR-mJfrR3k6LW69izES8rcs/edit?usp=sharing

Simple Tulpa Forcing Guide

Introduction: Finding ways to develop a tulpa who hasn’t yet achieved vocality can be a challenge, especially if you have yet to lay down any concrete traits regarding your tulpa’s appearance or mannerisms. As a result, it may become hard to form a connection with your tulpa, leading to stalled ...

5:52 AM

We were hoping for feedback on our process, I know this is kind of a simple exercise, but that's also kind of the point.

5:54 AM

I worry that it's too self-explanatory to be useful, but we do enjoy writing more beginner-oriented material, which we used to do more frequently in the past.